sentimentality

so, i just read the last post of that enormous thread on College Confidential, and i noticed the date, which was some time over the summer. and it made me a little reminiscent for a moment. i remember being so nervous and wanting so badly to get in (though i never actually admitted that...it was just "oh if i get in, that'll be nice, but if not, senior year will be nice too...might as well give the application a shot") and I had all of these preconceived notions about other people by way of their postings. it was just a weird time, and i couldn't imagine actually being away from home so soon, but now that i'm here, it seems so natural. at this point, i haven't regretted skipping senior year even once, but sometimes i wonder if i will in the future. maybe even as soon as may, when i go back and everyone is doing their senior graduating thing. i mean, i doubt it, because i plan to go to senior ball and senior breakfast and grad night with them all...but i wonder. and i'm probably wondering simply because my room is a little gloomy and a bit messy and i'm a little tired...it's odd. then again, i'm only tired because i had more fun last night than i've had in a long time, and it makes me so glad to be here. has everyone kept in touch with friends back home? or are you still closer to friends back home than you are here? for a while, i thought i'd never find as good of a friend here as i had back in Sacto, but now i have...and honestly at time i have little desire to keep in touch with those friends back home...though i'd probably regret that as soon as i went home and saw them all again. i just think our experience is so different because we definately have a sense of leaving people behind, unlike most college students whose friends all disspersed after high school. i wonder what next year will be like, perhaps reuniting with people that choose USC, but perhaps not at all. and going home for non-holidays won't really be that same, since no one will be around.
holy cow, someone should just slap me for the word vomit that i just threw onto the screen (plus the punctuation is attrocious, but whatev it happens). but uh, yeah that's the inner monologue of jenny for the past little while. i'm going to go read now. meh, TO.